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[Feb. 17th, 2004|05:49 pm] |
| [ | affliction |
| |  blah | ] |
| [ | serenade |
| | Journey - Remember Me (yes, it's on repeat) | ] |
My goal for the next few months is to read a *lot*. When I say a lot, I mean at least 2 books a month, if not more. If you're interested in helping, comment with a list of books I should read :D I like fantasy books as well as macabr and general horror stuff. Suspense is very good as well. Vampire and Werewolves are *very good* as long as it's not Anne Rice (forgive me but I hate her writing style) I'm also interested in trying new stuff so~ :D
Current List:
Dragon's Gold - Piers Anthony & Robert E. Margoff
Serpent's Silver - Piers Anthony & Robert E. Margoff
Chimaera's Copper - Piers Anthony & Robert E. Margoff
The Adventures of Kelvin of Rud - Piers Anthony & Robert E. Margoff
Daughter of the Blood - Anne Bishop
Neverwhere - Neil Gaiman
Stardust - Neil Gaiman
An Eye for an Eye - John Grisham
Runaway Jury - John Grisham
It - Stephen King *
The Gunslinger - Stephen King
The Drawing of the Three - Stephen King
The Wastelands - Stephen King
A Wizard in Glass - Stephen King
The Wolves of Calla - Stephen King
A Game of Thrones - George R. R. Martin *
A Clash of Kings - George R. R. Martin
Sabriel - Garth Nix
Liarel - Garth Nix
Abhorsen - Garth Nix
Shade's Children - Garth Nix
Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix - J. K. Rowling (I'll read it someday)
The Long Road Home - Danielle Steel
* = Currently reading (so don't shoot me, Nymeria~) |
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| Thursday - Between Rupture and Rapture |
[Jan. 15th, 2004|06:38 am] |
| [ | affliction |
| |  indescribable | ] |
| [ | serenade |
| | Thursday - Between Rupture and Rapture | ] |
in the veins of the ultraviolet light,
the phosphor is starting a fire
shooting up in the iodine;
its turning on
rupture the wall around my heart
i feel so lost,
i've been shaking. you can't save me
(forget what the doctor said)
every bird in mid-flight is calling out your name
before it hits the window and it sings the rapture
without a second opinion
the chemicals saturate
to counteract the code
through the double-helix we are twisting
(too scared to let this go)
someone call the head nurse
she's coming to the capitol
to wrap us up and throw us in the dirt, with a dream thats turning off
rupture the wall around my heart
i feel so lost,
i've been shaking. you can't save me
(forget what the doctor said)
every bird in mid-flight is calling out your name
before it hits the window and it sings the rapture
we're coming to the capitol [x2]
the distance between us will rupture
coming to the capitol
in our hearts the disease wont touch us
coming to the capitol
love, now its too late
(love) to turn this off
alone is all we are
even when we we feel this close
it's just a lie we believe
these are the words that escape from our lungs,
rupture the wall ive built around my heart
i've been shaking
you can't save me
im turning off
we can't find a way
out of this moment
were lost in a dark hallway |
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| fork in the road |
[Jan. 13th, 2004|09:29 am] |
| [ | affliction |
| |  artistic | ] |
| [ | serenade |
| | Jewel - Amen | ] |
Somewhere in a forest shroud in darkness stands a little girl, gazing out at a fork in the path she walks. Behind her are shadows screaming, bone-like arms reaching out to hold her back, screaming that she'll never go anywhere. Ahead, there are two paths.
The first path is shrouded in mystery. It is a shadowed road with lamp posts, dull but there, lighting the way. Shadowed though it is, the path is clear to walk, visible and known. The path seems endless.
The second path is covered in thorny bushes, though it is illuminated by the light of the sun. The second path is covered in difficult obstacles. Faces she'd thought had disappeared, faces she tried to erase, images she longs to forget. The second path is a hard road, and it too is endless.
The little girl stands, dazed and confused as she gazes at the road in front of her. She is faced with a difficult choice. Should she follow the shadowed road with less obstacles or should she choose to endure the thorns of the illuminated road?
If she follows the shadowed road, she is forced to live in shadow her entire life, live in the background, long forgotten. There are no obstacles here, but there is close to no light in her life. She will be forced to live alone, forever, in sadness and sickness of the heart. If she follows this road, she foresakes all chances of happiness.
At the very end of this road, there is a blackened brick wall blocking her way. The wall spans past the highest clouds and along the longest border, endless and without weaknesses. This wall is scrawled with the graffiti of memories; haunting words and images that the little girl cannot escape. This wall will forever contain her in this sadness until she is forced to turn back and start anew, at the fork in the road one more time.
If the little girl follows the road illuminated by the sun, she will be cut and torn by those who would try to hold her back. She will be beaten both physically and emotionally. She will endure heartache.
At the end of the illuminated road, however, there is no wall. There are people here at the end of this road; people that love the little girl who wanders through these pathways. These people, shrouded in light with wings to guide them, welcome the girl into a new life-- a life lived in the world of light.
Both roads she could take are hard for her. The first is hard because there is no absolution at the end. There is neverending sorrow for her. The second is hard because it requires facing the things that make her hurt, facing and defeating these fears, these sorrows.
In the end, she will have to decide. She can linger here for awhile longer, hiding from the things that make her ache. She can hide here in her shadows, save and warm save for the hollow frost-bitten hole that was once her heart. Or she can move on. She can face her problems head on, take a beating, get knocked back down and held back and eventually heal and find peace for herself.
This choice seems like an obvious one from someone looking into the picture from the outside. However, for the girl, it is a choice of almost impossible difficulty.
She will only live once. What choice will she make?
That is up to her and only her. |
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| o-o |
[Jan. 11th, 2004|10:39 am] |
| [ | affliction |
| |  cold | ] |
| [ | serenade |
| | Lonestar - I'm Already There | ] |
If you're reading this, that means you should either a) login or b) friend me/comment and ask me to friend you... if I know you. Yeah. |
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| XD |
[Jan. 6th, 2004|03:48 pm] |
| [ | affliction |
| |  giggly | ] |
| [ | serenade |
| | Jessica Simpson song on radio (o_O) | ] |
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| waha |
[Dec. 30th, 2003|04:21 am] |
| [ | affliction |
| | amused | ] |
| [ | serenade |
| | Shinedown - In Memory | ] |
Just so you know...
I <3 Kira. |
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| new template |
[Dec. 22nd, 2003|05:24 pm] |
| [ | affliction |
| |  contemplative | ] |
| [ | serenade |
| | Fuel - Falls On Me | ] |
changed my colors again. it got to the point where i couldn't read the old one, lol. so now, my lj is nice and dark again. yay. :D
picture features mystic, who belongs to her T.T she said i could use as long as i linked back, so there's a link in my info to her site :D:D isn't it godly? i highly recommend all of you visit her site. u.u; she's got such awesome artistic talent... *_* *worship~*
lyrics are from Falls On Me by Fuel. <3 |
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| ahaha |
[Dec. 14th, 2003|06:15 pm] |
| [ | affliction |
| | amused | ] |
| [ | serenade |
| | Mannheim Steamroller - Still Nacht (Silent Night) | ] |
Oh my God, I can't stop laughing. I seriously can't stop laughing. It's like last night, when I was turning blue from laughing so hard. Oh my God. Hahaha. XD;; Crap. Oh lord. Well, at least I can say I'm happy. XD;; |
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[Dec. 12th, 2003|10:42 pm] |
| [ | affliction |
| | amused | ] |
| [ | serenade |
| | Thursday - Between Rupture and Rapture | ] |
I'm just going to delete your comments, you're wasting your effort posting them. I don't even read them before I delete them. |
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| colors! |
[Nov. 26th, 2003|01:31 pm] |
| [ | affliction |
| | creative | ] |
| [ | serenade |
| | Tim McGraw - She's My Kind of Rain | ] |
woo, new colors and new userpic. pic is from poison cage, I think, that or it's from scarlet butterflies. rann is a godly artist, i worship her. colors are taken from the picture. i was getting sick of light blues; wanted something hot and firey. ^^ |
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| post a comment? |
[Nov. 19th, 2003|04:00 pm] |
| [ | affliction |
| | content | ] |
| [ | serenade |
| | Three Days Grace - I Hate Everything About You | ] |
Post anything that you want here, and post it anonymously.A story, a secret, a confession, a fear, a love... anything. Make sure to post anonymously and honestly. Post as many times as you'd like. Then, put this in your LJ to see what others have to say. |
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[Oct. 6th, 2003|08:50 am] |
| [ | affliction |
| | thirsty | ] |
| [ | serenade |
| | Athena Cage - All or Nothing | ] |
This journal is friends-only. If you think you should be on my friends list, leave a comment at Jerusalem's Lot on the most recent entry, or send me an email with your LJ username and who you are, and I'll see about adding you. Yay. |
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